And before that...

Ok Something is so seriously fucked up with my lungs right now... whoever's responsible is gonna have hell to pay! Their ass is grass and i'm the lawnmower! Raaaarrr! Hahaha ok but anyway, seriously, what the fuck is UP? That cough i was complaining about? I mean, it's gotten better but in other ways it's gotten worse.. cause now, sometimes when i cough, i like physically can't breathe for a few seconds afterwards. I've never had asthma, no one in my family has asthma, i don't smoke, and it's not happening when i'm like doing anything.. i mean today, i'm sitting at lunch and i cough a little and then blammo, CAN'T BREATHE. No lungs. It's like there are just no lungs down there, like they just disappeared. I guess it is asthma but i'm so fucking confused cause i have no idea where it's coming from and it's really scary and i really don't want to have to deal with this for like the rest of my life ESPECIALLY if it's just gonna randomly happen when i'm like eating pizza and shit! I mean you know if i can't play baasketball or whatever fine, no love lost but if i can't eat pizza!? I mean what the fuck?!

Ok two more things: I picked up How the Mind Works by Steven Pinker last night for the first time in like a year, I had let it drop cause i had gotten to this really thick weird part that i really didn't understand, but writing that stuff about Being John Malkovich yesterday made me want to pick it up again. So I read and i get through two pages of the weird stuff i don't understand and then bingo! i hit the motherlode! I got to this chapter that just drove me insane it was SO cool about how even something as complex as a serious eyeball can evolve just from random mutations of a light sensitive area of cells in just 400,000 generations. It ROCKED MY WORLD reading this stuff. I'm so psyched that book is back in my life. It's so much better than getting laid.

Ok then two, this morning i walk into my office and for the past however long, when i walk in and take off my coat i put it on my chair, but for this utterly incomprehensible reason today, i pulled my door back and hung the coat on the hook. I realize this isn't that exciting but a) I had NO IDEA there was a hook back there. I have never looked there, I have never hung anything there, I have never seen anyone else hang anything there. b) it was a completely automatic movement, as if I had done it a thousand times before. It wasn't like "hey i wonder if there's a hook on my door for my jacket oh check it out there is!" it was like "lalala put my jacket on the hook, sit down, lalala."

I guess maybe I've seen other people do it and it engraved itself in my brain as an automatic action without me even ever physically doing it? I mean, i have no recollection of seeing other people do it but i'm sure it's possible i have, it's not the kind of thing I would have actively taken note of but I suppose my subconscious may have... anyway it was the coolest most bizarre thing. Having a brain is cool.