And before that...

Calm Chen.

It's Ok.

Firstly and most importantly, there is nothing reasonable I can do about it.

Secondly, someone quoted to me yesterday "our enemies provide us with the best practice." Which sounds cliche enough to be potentially empty, but it's not. For instance, this past year has been my initiation into the wonderful world of the rush hour traffic/long commute combo, and at first I would get home with muscles like wood and be totally crabby and not deal very well at all, but eventually it became this zen exercise in dealing with shit I don't have control over, and learning not to tense when tensing is not going to accomplish anything. The immersion aspect was key.

And one of my exercises in building a better chen this year was to be more patient with people, and this is going to be a soupy immersion into the type of situation in which I get extremely impatient. And I'm just going to have to deal, or else I will pop a blood vessel, or my stomach will rupture, or I will do something stupid that will get me fired. It's that simple.

So, it is in fact "good practice."

My yoga tapes arrived yesterday, can you tell?